To Hold On

Never would I have guessed that you would be the one to wish me a merry christmas first. Just that small gesture meant so much to me, thank you.

To Grow Apart

I've come to realize that one of the best feelings in life is waking up and realizing that you've let go of that one thing that has been burdening you.

To Feel It

Now my heart is perpetually broken by lost opportunity; for moments that are never allowed to flourish.

To Find My Light

I know someday you'll have a beautiful life. I know someday you'll be the sun in someone else's sky. Just not mine, not now.

To Hope

And above all, watch with glittering eyes the whole world around you, because the greatest secrets are always hidden in the most unlikely places. Those who don't believe in magic will never find it.

To Want This Change

At some point you will realize that you have done too much for someone, that the only next possible step to do is to stop. Leave them alone. Walk away. It’s not like you’re giving up, and shouldn’t try. It’s just that you have to draw the line of determination from desperation. What is truly yours would eventually be yours, and what is not, no matter how hard you try, will never be.

To Give Up On You

I’ve given lots of people chances, but there’s only so much faith you can have in people.

To Be So Over It

I didn't walk away because I fell out of love. I left because I was tired of fooling myself into thinking that this was anything like love.

To Admit I'm Not Okay

It's not okay because he made me laugh. Because I didn't have to pretend to be anything other than who I am when I was with him. Because I don't believe that stuff about finding your other half, but because I do believe that what you look for is someone who makes you a better person when you're with them. who changes you for the better, who makes you the best person you can possibly be, and because I thought I had found that in him.

To Somehow Deal With It

I'd be lying if I told you losing you was something I could handle.

To Explain This Once

You really want to know what happened to us? I was sick of dealing with all your bullshit. Half the time what we had was amazing, you gave me butterflies and i was so comfortable around you. But that was only half the time, the other half you acted like a bipolar asshole. One day you loved me & the next it was like you couldn't even stand to be around me. I opened my eyes kid, i don't deserve someone like you and honestly, i feel so sorry for the next girl because she will be left broken.

To Work It Out

I suffer in silence. I don’t cry in front of people. I can smile despite how shitty things are. I will always put you before me. I leave my phone on at night just in case someone needs me. It’s because I love everyone else more than I could ever love myself. What can I say, I’m just a fuck up with a good heart.

To Bypass The Hurt

i enjoy the simple things in life, like going out to lunch with my mom and drinking my starbucks coffee. i love grocery shopping and buying trashy magazines at the checkout. i don’t want to get involved with someone who can hurt me. i don’t want to care about someone. i don’t want to have to worry…to hurt. i just want to keep enjoying the simple things in life. i know that is no way to live, but right now that’s the best i got, because being hurt is no way to live either.

To See This Coming

Stop saying you’re sorry. You want to know something? I knew. I knew you didn’t feel that way about me. I knew, and I still let it happen...because, well, I figured that one night with you was better than never. So will you stop saying you’re sorry? Because you didn’t know better, but I did.

To Know That...

I can't make you as happy as I used to, kills me.

To Want One Wish

It's like the only person that would've made getting older any easier, could've cared less that I was even alive today. Just a simple 'happy birthday' from him, would've been the best present of all.

To Take Control

Seriously, fuck this. We only talk when you start the conversation. We only hang out when you set a date. I'm sick of being your doll. Truth is I was only a mess that you could control.

To Forget

You had me. For the millionth time, you had me. I know I said I would never come back, I said I'd never do this again. But here I am, lying in your bed and I can't remember a thing I've ever said.

To Simply Want Happiness

It seem like everyone around me has someone that makes them happy. I've never been this jealous in my life. I just want someone that I can love with all my heart and love me that much and more in return.

To Diagnose The Problem

You're my favorite damn disease.

To Find Your Smile

I wish I could give you what you're looking for, but I don't know what that is. There's a part of you that you keep closed off from everyone, including me. It's as if I'm not the one you're really with. I just want to make you happy.

To The End

That's it. I'm done. I'm sick of chasing after love, if I'm ever meant to be loved it'll have to come find me. I wont waste my time or effort on it anymore.

To Miss You More Than Words Could Ever Begin To Explain

Getting through this is like getting through a storm. I've never been so scared in my entire life, but boy I love the sound and feel of your rain.

To Loving The Way Things Are

I just can’t pull myself away.

To Form Imaginary Lines

This wasn't supposed to happen. I wasn't supposed to fall for you. Miss you. Picture myself with you. No. I can't. It's already too easy for you to break my heart.

To Catch My Breath

Don't you think it's better to be extremely happy for a short while, even if you lose it, than to be just okay for your whole life?

To Enjoy Your Company

We shared each other like an island.

To Never Want Something So Badly

You are everything I ever wanted and everything I hated. You are the world's biggest jerk, but the sweetest one I ever met. You're stubborn as hell, but I find it kinda cute. You look like you could beat anyone up without difficulty, but you have the most sensitive touch. You aren't mine, but I’d really like you to be.

To My Dreams: Dayy 5

Day 1 — Your Best Friend
Day 2 — Your Crush
Day 3 — Your parents
Day 4 — Your sibling
Day 5 — Your dreams
Day 6 — A stranger
Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
Day 15 — The person you miss the most
Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country
Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
Day 23 — The last person you kissed
Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Day 28 — Someone that changed your life
Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror

Dear Love,
I've dreamed about you long enough, I'm over it.

<3 H

To My Sis: Dayy 4

Day 1 — Your Best Friend
Day 2 — Your Crush
Day 3 — Your parents
Day 4 — Your sibling
Day 5 — Your dreams
Day 6 — A stranger
Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
Day 15 — The person you miss the most
Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country
Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
Day 23 — The last person you kissed
Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Day 28 — Someone that changed your life
Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror

Dear Sis,
Darling, you are stronger than you think. Please always remember that and don't let anyone tell you differently...ever!! I'm so proud of you and I miss you so much!!
<3 H

To Set This Straight

I don't get attached. I don't want a relationship unless you can prove to me you're not all the same. no, your words don't mean shit to me. no, I don't trust you. no, I don't believe you. promises are nothing but empty words to me. I know I'm not your one & only so don't tell me I am. no, my smile doesn't make your day. no, my laughter isn't music to your ears. no, i'm not too good to be true so start with the truth. if i'm what you want, tell me why & tell me often. Tell me you love me, but only if you mean it.

To My Parents...I love you: Dayy 3

Day 1 — Your Best Friend
Day 2 — Your Crush
Day 3 — Your parents
Day 4 — Your sibling
Day 5 — Your dreams
Day 6 — A stranger
Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
Day 15 — The person you miss the most
Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country
Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
Day 23 — The last person you kissed
Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Day 28 — Someone that changed your life
Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror

Dear Mom,
The only words that come to mind are...thank you!! Without you and your strength I wouldn't be where I am todayy. I love you more than words could even start to explain!!

<3 Your Go-getter

Dear Daddyo,
Because of you, I will always know that I'm loved and that I mean the whole world to someone. I love you sooooo much!!

<3 Buddyo

To Want This

I don’t want to deny my heart its chance to feel. I don’t want to deny my soul something real.

To You: Dayy 2

Day 1 — Your Best Friend
Day 2 — Your Crush
Day 3 — Your parents
Day 4 — Your sibling
Day 5 — Your dreams
Day 6 — A stranger
Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
Day 15 — The person you miss the most
Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country
Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
Day 23 — The last person you kissed
Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Day 28 — Someone that changed your life
Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror

Dear you,
Youre the one. The one I want, the one I need. So please, just forget all those other girls. I promise they can never love you half as much as I can. I know you may love them more than me. But I can love you. Your the only one for me. Your it. I can't function without you. So choose me. I'll be there for you, the good times and the bad. They won't. Remember that. Always. My heart is open I'm letting you in cause you give me a reason and the faith I've been needing to start again and your love is healing, I'm finally breathing. I've been waiting so long hoping for this moment. My heart is open.

<3 H

To Drift

And I'll be here by the ocean. 
Just waiting for proof that there are sunsets and silhouette dreams.
 All my sandcastles fall like the ashes of cigarettes and every wave drags me to the sea.

To Trying Something Different For Awhile: Dayy 1

Found this, you write a letter to the certain person everydayy. Giving it a try...

Day 1 — Your Best Friend
Day 2 — Your Crush
Day 3 — Your parents
Day 4 — Your sibling
Day 5 — Your dreams
Day 6 — A stranger
Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
Day 15 — The person you miss the most
Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country
Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
Day 23 — The last person you kissed
Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Day 28 — Someone that changed your life
Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror

Dear Trio,
I'm pretty sure that I wouldn't have made it the past few years without you two. Yall have been my rock through many rough points in my life. I can't believe that we're starting college now and that I won't be seeing yall everyday, or even just whenever we have free time. But dont worry, we've made it this far and there's no way that we wont keep in touch and apparently since im the only one that can drive...ill be making many trips to come see yall. I love you two more than any words could ever start to explain!!

<3 H

To Regret

I’m convinced that my biggest mistake was letting you leave without fighting to make you look back.

To Start Something New

So just kiss me and let my hair messy itself in your fingers and let me steady myself in the arms of a boy that wont ask me to be what he needs but lets me exist as I am.

To Be Me

I am here. This is me and I am always here. And I don't want to go through the rest of my life regretting. I want to learn how to be strong for what I am doing, brave about who I am, and forgive anyone who tries to fuck it all up.

To Know You

He is familiar. I can't explain it. Maybe it's something from a past life. But he is familiar. I see him, and he's not a stranger or just a familiar face. He is known to me. My soul must know his, because he's comfortable.

To Remember && Go Back

You wrapped your arms around me, pressing your body against mine. And in that moment of perfection, I knew we were meant to be. I never wanted you to let go of me.

To Think Of The Beginning

Feelings never do make sense. They get you all confused. Then they drive you around for hours before they drop you right back where you started.

To Nearly Give Up

I'm just so tired of being alone. When everyone else around me has someone to love.

To Make Believe

You are the only reason I keep playing pretend. Everything reminds me of you but I don't like to admit it. I don't like to admit that I let someone in my heart break me down and tear me apart. I keep pretending everything's alright. It just keeps hurting more and more.

To Still Play This Game

Even though I like you, in front of you I pretend I don't. Even though I'm hurt, I pretend that I'm fine. Even though I fully know everything, I pretend that I don't know anything. Even though I miss you, I pretend that I feel nothing. Even though I still haven't moved on or let go, I pretend that I moved on. Even though I cry, I pretend that I'm happy and smile.

To Go To Hell

I can't believe this. My heart has stopped. I can't catch mi breath, I feel like I'm going to puke, and I think I'm going to cry for dayys. How could you do this to me?? What have I ever done to you to deserve this?? I've never said this about anyone before but I hate you. Please just leave me be, don't talk to me or act like things are okayy. I'm done with this shit. Done with you. Forever. Goodbye.

To Make Excuses For You

I don't know why. Maybe it's because you're mad. Maybe it's because you're afraid. Maybe it's because you're also a little confused. Maybe it's because you want to act cool. But whatever the reason; you're breaking my heart.

To Act Like This Isn't Killing Me

What's worse than being blindly in love with a guy and not seeing him for what he really is, is being head over heels in love with a guy and seeing him for exactly what he really is.
The asshole, the cheater, the guy who breaks your heart over and over again, and still loving him and still not being able to get over him.

To Immerse Myself In Your World

And I thought I could do this. And I thought that I could grow emotionless. I thought I could learn to be like you, heartless. But, I was wrong. I’ve grown attached with every smile and every touch.

To Get Things Straight

There are things that you don't want to continue, but you are afraid to end. It's like you don't want to expect anything, but you're still willing to wait.

To Closing My Eyes

I hate waking up when all I dream about is you. And me. Together.

To Come Back To You Again

We run back to each other when its convenient. We know that in the end, we're meant for each other, but not right now. So we play games, act like we're okay when one of us has someone else. When in reality, it tears us apart to know that we can be happy with someone else. But it's that slight hope that we will end up together that always keeps us running back.

To Reach For My Dreams

This is my time now. Time to concentrate on what really matters, what has never let me down or made me sad. From this point on my dreams are coming first.

To Be Disappointed Yet Again

I fell for him because of the tilt of his smile, because he can make me laugh. But in this case, mostly because he made me believe that this time I was something different.

To Take A Risk

This might be my last chance, so maybe I should take it. I just hope you're listening to everything I'm saying.

To Know Nothing But You

Well, when he doesn't talk to me for a few months again, yeahhh, I'm going to regret letting myself fall for him again. But right now, this is all that I want. So, I'm letting it happen.