He is familiar. I can't explain it. Maybe it's something from a past life. But he is familiar. I see him, and he's not a stranger or just a familiar face. He is known to me. My soul must know his, because he's comfortable.
You wrapped your arms around me, pressing your body against mine. And in that moment of perfection, I knew we were meant to be. I never wanted you to let go of me.
You are the only reason I keep playing pretend. Everything reminds me of you but I don't like to admit it. I don't like to admit that I let someone in my heart break me down and tear me apart. I keep pretending everything's alright. It just keeps hurting more and more.
Even though I like you, in front of you I pretend I don't. Even though I'm hurt, I pretend that I'm fine. Even though I fully know everything, I pretend that I don't know anything. Even though I miss you, I pretend that I feel nothing. Even though I still haven't moved on or let go, I pretend that I moved on. Even though I cry, I pretend that I'm happy and smile.
I can't believe this. My heart has stopped. I can't catch mi breath, I feel like I'm going to puke, and I think I'm going to cry for dayys. How could you do this to me?? What have I ever done to you to deserve this?? I've never said this about anyone before but I hate you. Please just leave me be, don't talk to me or act like things are okayy. I'm done with this shit. Done with you. Forever. Goodbye.
I don't know why. Maybe it's because you're mad. Maybe it's because you're afraid. Maybe it's because you're also a little confused. Maybe it's because you want to act cool. But whatever the reason; you're breaking my heart.
What's worse than being blindly in love with a guy and not seeing him for what he really is, is being head over heels in love with a guy and seeing him for exactly what he really is. The asshole, the cheater, the guy who breaks your heart over and over again, and still loving him and still not being able to get over him.
And I thought I could do this. And I thought that I could grow emotionless. I thought I could learn to be like you, heartless. But, I was wrong. I’ve grown attached with every smile and every touch.