To Dull

I guess the amazing moments make even the average moments feel like something is wrong. I hate that feeling. I miss him being here like he used to be.

To Remember The Dates

Every day since: July 14th when I first met you, July 18th and 21st when I came to visit you in the hospital, to August 13th when you gimped around all night with me, first kissed me, and told me I was your girl. Every day since I've asked myself how on Earth I got to be so lucky.

To Lose The Teen

This weekend I had the best birthday a girl could as for. Everything was so perfect. Family, friends, boyfriend...all of it. Awesome. A few days ago I was afraid of growing older, scared of entering the second decade of my life, but in all of my (now 20) years I've never had a better birthday. If there is ever a time that I am sad or having a rough day, I will look back on this weekend and remember how happy I was, how happy I am still.

To The Most Amazing Thing

When you're in a relationship and it's good, even if nothing else in your life is right, 
you feel like your whole world is complete.

To Conflict

Sometimes I'm so happy that it scares me. Like makes me sick to my stomach scares me. Is that even possible? And if so, why? Because I'm afraid to lose that happiness? Afraid that one wrong word, look, or comment could send him running? Fear of loss, that must be where it all stems from. The fear that I don't deserve the happiness that we have, but at the same time it's only happiness that him and I could share. Anything else would be significantly less. And therefore not be worth it.

To Hold On Tight

My biggest fear is losing you. Please don’t ever make me face that fear. You have absolutely no idea how much you mean to me. And more importantly how incredibly happy you make me.

To Sing Your Song

Got an early birthday present today. Funny how something so simple can mean so much.

(s/n): Haven't been this happy in an awfully long time :) :)