Once you have convinced yourself that something will never happen, what do you do when that something comes back around? After years of thinking it was just a dream and nothing more, it's hard to believe that what I have been longing for may actually become a soon reality.
But is it all worth it?? To go through the same thing I did three years ago? But of course this time will be different, because life never plays out the some way twice....right?? But this is what I wanted, what I have always wanted. Any other girl would be ecstatic, but I guess you could say I'm no mundane girl. I mean, I know I should be happy.
It's just the fact that a wall that has been in the frantic building process for three years is a tad bit difficult to tear down in the span of a few weeks. I honestly can not make up mi mind between building the wall faster than ever before or letting miself fall for what he promised me once upon a time....
1 comment:
this sounds like the thoughts that have gone through my head so many times, that i could never figure out how to say hahah. i love you girl.
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