Monday, November 29, 2010

To Admit I'm Not Okay

It's not okay because he made me laugh. Because I didn't have to pretend to be anything other than who I am when I was with him. Because I don't believe that stuff about finding your other half, but because I do believe that what you look for is someone who makes you a better person when you're with them. who changes you for the better, who makes you the best person you can possibly be, and because I thought I had found that in him.

Monday, November 22, 2010

To Somehow Deal With It

I'd be lying if I told you losing you was something I could handle.

Sunday, November 21, 2010

To Explain This Once

You really want to know what happened to us? I was sick of dealing with all your bullshit. Half the time what we had was amazing, you gave me butterflies and i was so comfortable around you. But that was only half the time, the other half you acted like a bipolar asshole. One day you loved me & the next it was like you couldn't even stand to be around me. I opened my eyes kid, i don't deserve someone like you and honestly, i feel so sorry for the next girl because she will be left broken.

Friday, November 19, 2010

To Work It Out

I suffer in silence. I don’t cry in front of people. I can smile despite how shitty things are. I will always put you before me. I leave my phone on at night just in case someone needs me. It’s because I love everyone else more than I could ever love myself. What can I say, I’m just a fuck up with a good heart.

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

To Bypass The Hurt

i enjoy the simple things in life, like going out to lunch with my mom and drinking my starbucks coffee. i love grocery shopping and buying trashy magazines at the checkout. i don’t want to get involved with someone who can hurt me. i don’t want to care about someone. i don’t want to have to worry…to hurt. i just want to keep enjoying the simple things in life. i know that is no way to live, but right now that’s the best i got, because being hurt is no way to live either.

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

To See This Coming

Stop saying you’re sorry. You want to know something? I knew. I knew you didn’t feel that way about me. I knew, and I still let it happen...because, well, I figured that one night with you was better than never. So will you stop saying you’re sorry? Because you didn’t know better, but I did.

Sunday, November 14, 2010

To Know That...

I can't make you as happy as I used to, kills me.

Saturday, November 13, 2010

To Want One Wish

It's like the only person that would've made getting older any easier, could've cared less that I was even alive today. Just a simple 'happy birthday' from him, would've been the best present of all.

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

To Take Control

Seriously, fuck this. We only talk when you start the conversation. We only hang out when you set a date. I'm sick of being your doll. Truth is I was only a mess that you could control.

To Forget

You had me. For the millionth time, you had me. I know I said I would never come back, I said I'd never do this again. But here I am, lying in your bed and I can't remember a thing I've ever said.