Friday, July 29, 2011
I don't really know what happened tonight. The one person that I thought would always be there for me no matter what kind of decision I made, isn't. Who do I turn to when the one I always turn to, my closest friend, is the one I can't talk to about it. I miss her already, I'm hoping this time away will fix things. Because a girl can only feel this barrier between her and her mother but for so long.
Thursday, July 28, 2011
When things first started out, I thought I wanted one thing. Come to find out...I wanted something completely different. And I'm totally content with it surprisingly. All of this is new to me but all the pieces finally seem to be coming together.
Wednesday, July 27, 2011
Finally, I can breathe cleanly. I'm officially ready to move on to the next chapter of my life because I know it will be happier and healthier than the last one. I finally feel no need to look backward and miss what I thought was there because I know that I can look forward to a brighter and better future.
Tuesday, July 26, 2011
So there's this older gentleman that comes into the store just about everyday. At first I thought he was rather strange, but recently he's started to grow on me. He really is a sweet man that just seems to need a lot of help with his phone and has a lot of stories to tell. I've grown to enjoy these stories very much. Today he told me about his late wife and how he starts off every morning by picking whatever flower is in season in her garden and laying it on her grave, every single morning. He told me how he misses her so much sometimes but he knows that she doesn't want him to hurt in her absence. So he told me how he doesn't take a single day for granted and strives to find the little joys in life that make it worth living, worth going on without her. It was probably, and by probably I mean by far is the sweetest thing I've ever heard in my entire life! Before he left today, he told me that he'd see me soon because my company and my smile was one of those little joys for him (not in a creepy way, but completely genuine and honest). I don't think a stranger has every helped me as much as this man did today, and the truth is he probably doesn't even know it.
Monday, July 25, 2011
Sunday, July 24, 2011
Wednesday, July 20, 2011
I love that moment. When you're on a long car ride, or listening to music, or reading. And you completely zone out. You forget your troubles, and everyone around you. You're focused on that one thing, and that one thing only. You're content, and everything seems peaceful.
Tuesday, July 19, 2011
And see with my own eyes that you're alright, lifted a million weights of my shoulders. Even through all the pain that you've been through, you still manage to smile and even crack jokes on me...so comforting. Now here's to prayers for strength to get you through the road ahead and for steady determination that you've already shown. See you soon, i promise.
Sunday, July 17, 2011
All of my thoughts and are with him right now. I'm so ready for him to call me with better news, I just want to hear from him that he's okayy. At least tomorrow I'll be able to get more information about what happened and about the future. Until then, I'll continue to hope that he has a full recovery and can return to his passion.
Thursday, July 14, 2011
It's funny how when you finally get over someone, you start seeing them in a whole new perspective. It's like you're looking at them through the eyes of your best friend; & you realize, he's nothing special. He's just another ordinary boy that wasn't good enough for you.
Wednesday, July 13, 2011
Tuesday, July 12, 2011
Today was strange...but in a good way. It was the first day that I was able to really think about everything and truly be at peace with all that's happened. I'm not sad, resentful, or bitter anymore. I've moved on and I'm ready for a fresh start. Finally, it just doesn't hurt anymore.
Monday, July 11, 2011
Sunday, July 10, 2011
Saturday, July 9, 2011
Friday, July 8, 2011
Thursday, July 7, 2011
Sometimes you need to see that life is not always perfect. We will not always get what we want. And though it hurts a lot, what should've happened, happened. Who should've left, left, and whatever's thrown you off course will always bring you to where it is you're supposed to be.