Sometimes I'm so happy that it scares me. Like makes me sick to my stomach scares me. Is that even possible? And if so, why? Because I'm afraid to lose that happiness? Afraid that one wrong word, look, or comment could send him running? Fear of loss, that must be where it all stems from. The fear that I don't deserve the happiness that we have, but at the same time it's only happiness that him and I could share. Anything else would be significantly less. And therefore not be worth it.