Alright, so what has happened recently goes against everything that I have taught miself to believe...and I am enjoying ever minute of it!! Every moment that I spend with him is like no other, and there is this light that radiates brighter than no other. And for once in a long time I am accepting the fact that these hopeless, dependent, full of life feelings may be entering mi life again. The only thing I can use in comparison to everything is the happy upbeat music that comes on in a movie when the main character sees him...the boy she is falling for, yea that is beginning to happen in real life.
But along with all of mi current happiness, comes the suspicion...am I falling to fast and if I am, do I have enough stableness to catch miself before it is too late. Of course I knew this would happen from the moment things rekindled, because I missed him, everything about him. And the second that things began to turn for the best was the second that I fell for him again. Like I said in mi last post any other girl would be ecstatic, but obviously I can't just receive happiness with no questions asked.
Which leads to mi strange feelings that things won't turn out like I hope they will. I just keep hearing a voice, maybe one of reason, saying that love will cheat me out...again.