The past three days just seem like a huge blur. I can't distinguish what's real and what's not, what I'm thinking and what's really happening. I just want things to go back to normal. I'm sick of feeling sick to my stomach whenever I'm awake. I so badly want to be able to trust you again. But more than that, I need you to man up and be the guy I know you can be. I just want us to be us again.