Tonight I stood in the pouring rain, just stood there. I don't know for how long and I don't know why, but it was the first time I've felt something real in weeks. It was like the universe projecting everything I've been feeling: sadness, bitterness, anger, defeat, fear...all of it soaking every inch of me. Everything has changed now, even falling water from the sky somehow feels different, makes me feel different. Nothing's the same, never will be.